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Wendy and I met during a summer vacation in college.He transferred from the Law School to our School of Economics and Management and was assigned to the same class as me.
Later,after we got to know each other,he began to pursue me,and at the same time,Ryan was also pursuing me.
At that time,I wasn't optimistic about Wendy.I admitted that I liked him very much.He was the kind of guy who was unworldly,had personality,was talented and handsome,and many girls were crazy about him.
But his unrestrained personality made me feel very insecure.I had long heard that he was rather promiscuous and had multiple ambiguous relationships,and of course,I was one of them.
Wendy was recognized as a talented man in our school.He had excellent grades and could play the guitar very well.Everyone said that the beauty who could match the talented Wendy was none other than Zoe.
It was said that I was also one of the top three campus belles in the school at that time.I had learned piano,chess,calligraphy and painting since I was a child,and I was also outstanding in temperament among the crowd.I was the"white moonlight"in the hearts of many boys.
In fact,at that time,everyone had always thought that Ryan and I were a couple.
Because I had always been very close to Ryan.He had been silently by my side since the freshman year.We often went shopping and watched movies together.
I really liked the feeling of being with Ryan.We didn't talk about feelings,and I didn't need to pretend to be someone else.I always felt an unprecedented sense of relaxation and comfort.
Ryan's feelings for me were obvious even to a fool,not to mention me who was with him day and night.In fact,he often expressed his love for me both explicitly and implicitly,but every time I dismissed him with the excuse of"I don't want to be in a relationship."
I was afraid of losing this friend.In fact,I was more afraid of losing his selfless kindness to me.I admitted that I was selfish.
From then on,we had a tacit understanding,enjoying the process without asking about the result.
"Just being able to accompany you like this makes me satisfied!"Ryan once said to me.
But Wendy's appearance shattered his meager hope.
Wendy began to launch a crazy pursuit of me.He wrote love songs for me and played the guitar for me downstairs in my dormitory building.His sudden outpouring of affection eventually overwhelmed me,and I fell for him.
Most women are vain.
At that time,I really enjoyed the aura that Wendy brought me.When walking on the street,I often heard the girls next to me whispering,"Look!That's the girl that the talented Wendy is pursuing."After hearing that,I felt as proud as if I had won a medal.
Despite the dissuasion of others,I chose Wendy without hesitation.
"You're really a love-struck person.I'm really afraid that you'll get hurt!"My best friend,Claire,looked at me worriedly,who was already obsessed with Wendy at that time.
Later,various facts proved that Claire's worries were not unfounded.
In the second semester of our senior year,I accidentally found out that I was pregnant.When I nervously told Wendy this news,he actually disappeared.
I still couldn't get in touch with him through various means.The feeling of being deceived made me disheartened.
In the end,it was Claire who accompanied me to have an abortion.Ryan also noticed that I wasn't in a good state at that time.He probably guessed what had happened and came to my rental house every now and then to make all kinds of nutritious soups for me.
At that time,I was so vulnerable that I almost fell for Ryan's meticulous care.However,just as my body was gradually recovering,Wendy appeared.
He actually blamed me for having an abortion without discussing it with him and called me a slut for letting another man take care of me.I saw the faint hickey on his neck and felt extremely disgusted.
But he seemed to have some kind of magic power to control my lifeblood.Then,with just a few words of persuasion from him,I actually,as if possessed,chose to forgive him again.
Facing my choice at that time,Ryan didn't show anything.Instead,he calmly said to me,"I will always be here waiting for you.Remember to come back to me,no matter how late it is!"
From then on,Ryan disappeared from my world as if he had evaporated into thin air.
The tenderness between Wendy and me after our short separation diluted all of this.I didn't even realize how cruel I was to Ryan at that time.
Campus life was simple and beautiful.Although I experienced many unpleasant episodes during the time I was with Wendy,it seemed that I was always solving his various complicated emotional problems.
At that time,we still used Renren.com.There were even girls who came to my Renren.com homepage to scold me for stealing their boyfriend from them and said that I was the mistress.
Wendy comforted me by saying not to pay attention to them and that I was the first girlfriend he had seriously dated.But behind my back,he never stopped his dissolute life.
My almost abnormal love for him made me silently endure all of this.After stepping out of the protection of the campus,I soon paid a heavy price for it.
