Chapter 33
1001words
Dear diary, i met a pretty new student today and i can't get my fucking eyes off her. She's so beautiful to get your eyes off her. Stiles thinks i have gotten too slow on girls since i started dating Patricia but that's not true. I fuck as many as i want. Besides, they are the one that come begging for a taste of me but this girl, I'm going to get her between my legs. She's going to moan my fucking name. So, we made a bet that i must fuck her within a month since she's a virgin. I can tell by her innocent eyes but what is within her ain't innocent.
My body froze in shock.
"Oh my god. Stephen," I cried between my words. I covered my mouth so he won't wake up.
"How could you? How did he know i was a virgin? All this time, I was being fooled."
He never loved me. He only had lust for me. I couldn't stand him. I took my car keys and left a note saying; "Don't ever look for me you bastard!"
I was driving on full speed. I thought of calling Bella before i did something crazy but she wasn't answering my calls.
"Answer the call Bella. Answer the damn call!"
I parked my car and took the bottle of alcohol next to me. I drank it to clear my head. I came out of the car and screamed.
"Fucking bastard! Aargh!"
I kept on drinking till i finished it. I called Aaron.
"Hello, Sharon."
"A---aron, Aaron. I don't know what to do anymore. My life is useless."
"What are you talking about? Why do you sound that way? Are you drunk?" He was confused.
"Does it matter? My whole life has been lies. I can't trust anyone. I can't take this anymore! I'd rather die. I don't know my purpose of living anymore. I thought i did."
"Sharon, Please tell me where you are right now. Don't do anything stupid."
"Why shouldn't i? Oh, yeah, Stupid. I was stupid at the first place. It's best if i die stupid, don't you think?"
"Please tell me where you are. Sharon please! I don't know what i will do if you leave me. Please tell me. I beg you."
"NO, i don't need saving. I've made up my mind. I just wanted to tell you goodbye."
"Sharon, please don't. If you do, i might do something stupid too. Just tell me where you are."
"I don't know."
"Describe."
"I'm on a bridge. It's still under construction."
"Just stay there. I'm coming to get you. Promise me you won't do anything crazy."
"I won't. Just come quick."
He hung up. He took his keys and drove on full speed.
Fifteen minutes passed and i haven't seen Aaron. I was losing patience. I couldn't wait anymore. It made me to think about how stupid i was to fall for Stephen. I couldn't take it anymore. I don't want to feel the pain. I just want to be free. I'm better off dead.
Rain was falling but i didn't seem to care if it was going to wet me.
I was going to jump off the bridge. Before i could, a scream distracted me.
"Sharon! Sharon don't!" I heard Aaron screaming on top of his voice.
"Aaron, stop. It's over." I said not re-thinking. I was about letting go but he grabbed my wrist and pulled me to his arms.
"How dare you?!" He screamed at me. It made me burst into tears.
"You want to leave me?" He asked, pressing his hands tightly on my arms.
"Aaron, you don't understand."
"What fucking thing do i not understand! Tell me. You were about to commit suicide in my very own eyes."
"I'm not my dad's biological daughter and Stephen made a bet on me all this while." I cried in between my words.
"So? Does that mean the next thing to do is to die and you think everyone will just move on with a smile on their faces? Even if everyone you know has lied to you and you can't trust anymore, what about me? Don't you trust me? Have i ever lied to you. Can't you see?" He covers half of his face and continues.
"Can't you see that my feelings are growing on you each day? Sharon, I'm in love with you. You're not the only one that is not thinking straight. I'm going crazy, okay. Fucking crazy since the day i set my eyes on you."
"Aaron, no, you can't have feelings for me." I was shocked at first. I never knew or noticed that he liked me.
"I'm not afraid of telling the whole world, Sharon. I love you! I love you Sharon!"
I covered his mouth.
"Stop it, Aaron. You can't love me. You can't."
"Why not? I love you and i don't care about what you say. I know you have feelings for me down there but you were just afraid of revealing it. I know..." His hands cupped my face.
"Aaron..." Before i could finish up my sentence, His soft lips pressed against mine. I didn't know what to do, pull him away? But i didn't. I knew deep in, I've been dying for a taste of his lips. He took my lips full. I kissed him harder not caring. Were we breaking rules? He pulled me closer to him so he could feel me more. We were both thinking the same thing, SEX. But i didn't say it.
"I think we should go home. To my house."
"Yeah." We both say, feeling awkward.
I entered his house. This was my first time. He took me to his room. As i was looking around, He locked his hands around my waist.
"What are you doing?" I asked, a little fear gripping me.
"I know you are dying for it." He said in my ear. I could feel his breath.
