Chapter 31
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My heart thumps against my chest. I whirl around so fast that my hair slaps across my face. I sigh in relief when I see it's just Sam.
"Goddamnit Sam! Give me that!"
I reach for my phone but she keeps it out of reach, blocking me with her back and elbow.
"Sam." When I move to the side she moves too
"Ugh, Sam, respect my privacy."
She turns around and flashes the phone at me
"So this is why you're currently obsessed with this machine?"
"Give me that."
I snatch the phone from her hand and she lets me.
"I'm still mad at the poetry crap."
She hikes a hand on her hip
"That's just so weird,who replies worried texts with poetry." She laughs
"It's not funny Sam."
She stops and clears her throat,
"Right. It's not but it's also rude to leave people hanging. Let's go back."
I blow out a breath
"Okay."
We head back.
I sit with the guys in the morning, they kicked out everyone at exactly midnight.
Sam groans from her position on the floor
"My head hurts..."
"Well it wouldn't be if you'd just listened and not drunk like an old man with no job in a town tavern."
"Hey! That's not nice." She glares
After having breakfast,we all settle in the sitting room and play cards.
I loose so I decide to go on the internet while I wait for the round to be done. Instead of instagram,my thumb presses on the message app and on Ronan's message.
Sam flops down beside me
"I can't win against those bastards."
I don't pay her much attention as I focus on the message staring back at me.
"Let's see what we've got here." She snatches the phone from me.
"By nightfall when the fireflies rise and spread in the beautiful night, I will drown in the memories of your love."
She adjusts her eyes and looks up at me
"Why would he even write you this? But then his mother was a poet right?"
"Yes."
"Then it makes sense,she must have written it so he's sharing it with you. But what does it really mean? There must be some romantic meaning obviously."
"By nightfall when the fireflies rise and spread in the beautiful night, I will drown in the memories of your love."
She reads the sentence again
And again
Until...wait.
I gasp and abruptly stand startling everyone
Sam jumps up,
"What is it?"
I repeat the line in my head
"Kim. You're scaring me,what's wrong?"
"She's turning pale." Xan says
"Kim!"
I flinch and turn my head to face her,I don't dare speak as my lips tremble
"Kim?" Sam calls cautiously
Bran moves to stand in front of me
"Hey.." he caresses my cheek "what's wrong."
I snatch my phone from Sam's grasp reading the message again
"No." I whisper,tears well in my eyes
"Baby you're shaking. What's wrong?"
"No."
I whisper again and move away from him, he frowns
I quickly put on my pumps and start for the door, Brandon stops me with a grip on my wrist
"Kim."
"I need to go."
"Go where?"
"What's going on Kimberly?" Sam asks with a spooked voice and expression
"Ro-Ronan. I know where he is, I need to go to him or else I won't be able to survive."
"What? Are you fucki-" Jonathan doesn't get to finish his sentence
"The pond,the text....."
Sam's whispers,her expression slowly but surely changes from confused to understanding
"Kim." She says with wide eyes and I rush out of the house like a mad lady
I drive at a speed I've never driven before.
It makes sense now.
Ronan happened to stumble on a very beautiful spot in the forest,the safe part.
On last year's anniversary, he decided to take me there. The night was lit by beautiful fireflies while we dipped our legs in the rocky nature pool with steamy water. That night was the first we ever had sex and I first told him I loved him after so many mute non responses whenever he said the words to me.
That can only mean one thing.
Please don't do it
Please don't hurt yourself because of me,I won't be able to forgive myself.
I reach the place and jump out of my car running down the steep hill into the bushes
A door closes in the distance and I hear
"Kim!"
"Kimberly wait!"
I don't stop, leafs slap me across the face and pointy twigs scratch at my ankles but I don't stop, I keep running.
"Kim!"
Bran shouts in the silent night, my face is streaked with tears.
I reach at the spot and there's no sign of Ronan, I search around screaming
"Ronan!"
"Ronan!"
I start sobbing
"Ronnn!!!"
And then I see his sketch pad,I run to it and pick it up from the ground squeezing it tight. Something catches my eye, the reflection of the moon shines on the sparkly water and a figure catches my attention. I gasp
"No."
I don't think as I kick off my pumps and jump into the water
"Kimberly!" Bran roars
I reach Ronan and try to pull him up but he won't budge.
His eyes open and he shakes his head,he's weak
I start to panic because I won't be able to hold my breath for long
Think Kimberly, think.
Yes.
Yes!
I wrap my hands around his neck and put my lips on his, I kiss him like I did that first time I said I love you to him. I start puddling my feet and pulling him up and he lets me,after a beat he helps me by moving up.
We resurface and both gasp for air. Xander helps me pull him out of the water. I kneel beside him and start crying
"What the hell were you thinking!" I hit his chest
"What is wrong with you!" I yell
"I'm sorry." He whispers
"How could you do this to me!"
"I'm sorry." He grabs both my cheeks
"I didn't mean to make you cry."
"You bastard!" I hit his chest weakly
"How could you even think-" I start sobbing
"I'm so sorry."
Everyone is quiet,or more like I can't hear them because I'm too focused on Ronan
"Why?" I whisper
"I can't live without you Kim, I just can't loose you. I can't and I don't want to."
I shake my head
"You never lost me,I was still there for you."
"I'd rather die than live without you."
"Don't ever do that again." I sniff
"Then be with me,give me another chance to make it up to you."
"Hel-"
"Bran don't." I hear Sam stop him
"She's right man." Xan agrees
"Be with me. Choose me." Ronan keeps saying
I look into his eyes
"Ron.."
"Please."
"I live with you or I die without."
Would I carry the burden of knowing i caused his death?
I nod
"Yes?"
I nod again and he places a chaste kiss on my forehead and leans it to mine.
A loud shatter sounds a few feet away and I don't dare look. I know it's Bran, he's looking for a way to purge.
My heart breaks into million pieces and I'm sure without a doubt, without Bran,I'll soon be drowning in it's blood.
